"I'm like Tinkerbell, Finn! NEED APPLAUSE TO LIVE!!" Rachel Berry [Glee]

So, I'm starting to feel disappointed in my summer, and yes, I know that's entirely my doing. But honestly, sometimes I want to go out, but I just - I get this sickly feeling in the pit of my stomach that's somehow related to deeply engrained need I have for attention.

But the thing about attention is that it's so contradictory. It's almost like I have my days when I crave it, but simultaneously just want to be a hermit and stay home with my Madre. UGH the human brain is an interesting thing. I have such a hard time getting out there to socialize. Like, once I'm in the social situation I'm usually fine, it's just getting me there that is the issue. Man oh man.

Also, something not so new to me is that I stress easy. Especially when there are like a gazillion things that I want to do, timeframe in which to do them, but don't plan them. It terrifies me that they will never get done and I'll just work at B&BW 30 hours a week and have another uneventful summer.

FOR EXAMPLE. Maddy and I want to go to NYC. As a theater major the fact that I've never been there really makes me feel like a failure. It's one of those facts that I tend to hide about my self, you know, like if you're a guy and you like the Jonas Brothers of HSM :) But the whole planning, money raising, planning aspect of the whole thing is stressing me out. Part of me just wants to say screw it, let's go to Charleston or Florida or something and just chill on the beach. Cause I love doing that too - but there are not beach-y beaches in NYC so that's yet another decision I have to make.

UGH I NEED AN EVENT PLANNER!!!! but alas - that too costs money. Which I'm slowly earning. You know, if I just got cast as the star of a major motion picture this all would be solved.

A whole new set of problems would crop up then, but it'd be a change of pace at least. Ha.

You know what I really need to do?

scream.

"A little misunderstanding? Galileo and the Pope had a little misunderstanding..." Sheldon Cooper [The Big Bang Theory]

So, my wonderful, amazing, half-Asian friend JLow has once again inspired me to do a post. It's show and tell time on my blog! woohoo!

Top 10 Quotes from Glee Season 1, Episode 17, "Bad Reputation" - Video - Glee


I.love.Glee. And, I'm not ashamed to admit it. And while the plot really is only so, so (in my opinion) something that really holds it together is the characters. Each one is so unique, and is written SO well that every episode has something that I can fall in love with. Oh, and the singing is pretty slammin too. I just discovered and an amazing website that is dedicated to all things glee. In fact, that's where that link comes from. Every week, they make a video that compiles all of their favorite quotes from the episode. And this week's "Bad Reputation" was full of some gems, and I've provided you a way to partake yourselves. Enjoy.

comics for smart people - and boy do I appreciate that. And while, yes, it does make me feel a little pretentious, I can't help the fact that humor that includes references to things that you have to be well-read or on the pretty geeky side in order to enjoy appeals more to me :) Those above were just a few of my favs, don't worry, I have plenty more saved on my hard drive. I mean, I'm just waiting for the day that the economy fails and they have to derive a new money system where everyone's net worth/monetary value is based solely off of the amount of funny pictures they have saved on their hard drive. *points to self* MILLIONAIRE.

This is Corin Nemec, as Jonas Quinn on Stargate: SG1 a show that I faithfully watched until it's cancellation and am mildly obsessed with.

This is Corin Nemec (far right) as the guy who bought a Mother's Day giftset from me on Saturday at Bath and Body Works, the store I have worked at since last summer. 

AND I DIDN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE HIM UNTIL 10 MINS AFTER HE LEFT THE STORE.

I. KNOW.

Just cuz. He's pretty :)

This show is SO on my list of ones I want to see when I go to NYC this summer. Too bad I can't see the b-e-a-utiful Aaron Tviet. I will get to see Alice Ripley though, so I guess it'll still be good. Hah.

<3 I miss my cranes family. 

"I think our hands just made a baby" Ned Freedman [17 Again]

I'm home! Yay Texas!

I was driving around and I realized that I had forgotten just how much I miss this place. It's so beautiful, and all of the familiar place just help me feel like I belong. It's great.

However, I don't know where I want to eat lunch today. And apparently that poses a problem :/ Once again, my indecisive nature is becoming an issue. Dangit. Oh well - we'll eventually go somewhere so I don't really have too much need to worry. But it would be nice if I could just know what I wanted, say it, and then we would go. Easy as that.

I wonder how decisive people live. It must be so nice....

"Home is where the heart is, so your real home's in your chest" - Captain Hammer [Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog]

So, yet another day in Burley and I'm spending my time udating my blog. That sounded really negative. It wasn't meant to. Man, I really need to work on my tone ha

I'm watching the edited copy of 17 Again that Brooke's family has. I find it funny that they have an edited copy of this movie. Terminator Salvation, I understand. 17 Again? Not so much....I'm interested to see if I miss anything in this version. Matthew Perry is about to drive off the bridge and turn into Zac Efron....yes! There's nothing I love more than Zac at his comedic-ness. BoyI sure hope that I'm lucky enough to marry a man that I'm as attracted to as Zac.

Once again, sometimes I should just self-edit before I type. Yes, I know there's a delete key but do I want to delete an entire paragaph? No, because then I just feel like I'm erasing all of my hard work (just a little tidbit inside my brain...)

So, we didn't end up going to institute last night, we went into Twin Falls with Brooke's family and went shopping at CostCo and then had dinner at Cafe Rio and then came home, chatted, and watched two episodes of "The Vampire Diaries". Yup - I've introduced Brooke to yet another item of pop culture that really has no real value. At all.

Oh! A difference! This kid just said "toolbag" instead of "douchebag". Hmm.

Well, tonight Brooke, Cara and I are going to make/decorate cakes tonight. I'm pretty excited. It should be a good time. Plus, I think that we're going to be taking them to people they know, so maybe I'll get out and meet some people or something. That could be fun. Maybe.

Well, I'm slowly running out of things to really say, and I'm sure that nobody is actually interested in this part of my life. ha. oh well.

and yet here I am - still typing. Oh well.

"Also, I can kill you with my brian" - River Tam [Firefly]

Well - it has officially begun. My summer. I'm in the good old town of Burley, Idaho visiting Brooke and don't have any school worries. Which is amazing. And strange. I keep thinking that there must be something that needs to be done  - some paper to write, some play to read, some project to finish up - but there isn't. I'm scot free. Woohoo!

Basically, I don't know what to do with myself. Interesting.

Brooke, unfortunately, however works all day today, tomorrow, and Friday so I'm left here to fend for myself while she's gone. She said that maybe one day if it isn't that busy I could come back with her after lunch break and she can show me around and whatnot - but today was not that day. Which is fine. At least this time I have the internet. Last time I was here they didn't have wireless or anything so I didn't have much to do while she was gone. It's so sad that so much of my life depends on a computer and the internet, and when I don't have those I don't know what to do with myself. Well, I guess that's not entirely true cause when I'm at home I have a car and friends and a pool and stuff to keep me busy. But when I'm out here in this precious little town, the internet seems to be my only connection to the world.

I don't mean to sound like a brat. Maybe I don't, but sometimes when I talk about technology and stuff in realtions to other places it could come off that way. It's just not a life I'm used to. And sometimes, I wish it was the way I lived - perfectly content to sit in the quiet, read a book, take a nap, work out, whatnot. But it's just not what I'm used to. Not that I don't like to do those things, I do. It's just...well...

oh boy. I'm just digging a hole. Oh well.

Tonight Brooke and I are going to Institute. That should be exciting. I've only ever been to institute once, and that was in Wales and apparently nobody really showed up so we just played broom hockey and called it a night. This should be an interesting experience. It'll be nice to try something new :)

Speaking of trying something new, from now on the title of my blog posts are going to be quotes from movies and tv, since I watch so much of it. They'll probably try to be related to what the post is about, but not always. Like today's. It's just one that I like that keeps popping into my brain. Thanks to Joss Whedon :D

4.19.10

Well...today is a bittersweet one in my book for sure. I've officially packed up all of my things (well...everything that I'm going to be storing over the summer anyway) and this is my last night in my apartment with my beautiful roommates.

WARNING - This post is about to get pretty sappy and sentimental so...watch out. If you don't want to deal with that then I'd stop reading now lol

I can't believe that I'm not going to be living with these people next year. We're like this perfect melding of personalities and part of me feels like I still haven't gotten as close to certain people in my apartment as I would like. I was a little bit of a recluse during the fall and tended to stick by Kels so I didn't branch out to Ari and Riley and Julie as much as I wish I had - and I've only had this semester with my precious Gera. And now, next year, I'm going to be living so far away from them and I'm scared out of my mind that we're going to drift (anyone who knows me knows I have this inordinate fear of being forgotten and...well...this is not the ideal situation to deal with that fear in). Especially Kels. I've lived with her my entire college experience, and I don't know what I'm going to do without her right next door to me to answer all my questions, scream with, and just be my goofy self with. It makes me really, REALLY sad. Like, I just don't even know what to do with myself.

Each one of the girls in my apartment has touched my life in a way that I never could have imagined, and I've seen them grow and learn as well throughout the year. They're such an integrated part of my life at the moment and moving on from that security blanket it tough for me. But, I want them to know that I love them more than words could ever express and I hope upon hope that don't forget me when I'm gone ;)

Geez, I make it sound like I'm dying or something. No wonder I live my life in the theater department.

My apartment, however, is not the only family that I'm leaving at the moment. And yes, I'm talking about the wonderful, beautiful, talented members of the cast of A Thousand Cranes. What an experience. I've recently been reflecting on it for my final paper for the tour and it's just bringing back a flood of old memories that I had forgotten about. Which is ironic because they aren't even that old. We had a cast party a week ago tomorrow and Richie made this dvd/movie of pictures and video from the entire experience - January-NOW. And I was just reminded of how much I LOVE these people. They may not realize it, but a huge part of my heart was opened and given to them. Like, sometimes I feel silly as to just how much I feel attached to these people. Richie, Cameron, Caitlin, Darla, Anna, Jes and Jon - you have found a special place in my heart and no matter what other shows I do, other people I meet, or casts I'm involved with - noone will ever take your place. You truly have helped this semester become, for me at least, a reign of love <3

Well, this isn't nearly as sappy as I was anticipating, which is good.

ANYWAY I'm way excited for this summer to start. I have so much ahead of me that I can barely contain myself. I was looking back at myself this time last year and I was only 2 months away from GOING TO WALES! And now I've gone and came back and I can't even believe it. And I can't believe that I'm not going back. Sad Day. However, in comparison I'm just as excited now as I was then - which just goes to show that going to Europe can be just as exciting as going home <3

Here's what on my plate for the next couple of months (in no particular order, of course):

EFY Counselor in San Antonio!
Bath & Body Works
Cameron's visiting from England :)
Drive in movies
My high school compadres
Warm weather
Clear blue skies
Reading in the pool
A week in Idaho with Brooke!
A week...somewhere else....with Maddy!
The beach
Singles ward (I'm not sure how I feel about this one, but it's cool)
My brother
My mother
My father
My grandparents
My home <3

Well...I'm off to clean the fridge now. Ohh buddy I've been waiting all day in anticipation to do this. SO EXCITED.

:/

4.12.10

So, Shannon has been going slightly crazy this week. Why you ask? Well, because the semester is ending and everything is due and I have finals. Yup. But, at least I'm all done with classes! Yay! Now, all I have to do is write a bucketload of finals and then it's off to Idaho and then BACK TO TEJAS! YES!

Now, in these times of crunch, as I like to call them, one sometimes needs to take a break/the time to let your brain melt. Because I'm of the philosophy that it's far better for your brain to melt while you're doing something enjoyable, rather then something you need to get a grade for. Am I right?!

WELL my brain-melting obsession lately has been watching bands do covers of other bands songs in the BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge. Yup. Here are some of my favorites. Please watch them, enjoy, and comment if you please :D :D

Paramore - Use Somebody [Kings of Leon]




Kate Nash - Flourescent Adolescent [Arctic Monkeys]





30 Seconds to Mars - Bad Romance [Lady Gaga]





The Noisettes - When You Were Young [The Killers]





Lily Allen - Naive [The Kooks]





Katy Perry - Electric Feel [MGMT]





Panic! At the Disco - Valerie [The Zutons]